Tá, tá... eu sei que nem uso isso aqui mais, eu sei que ninguém usa blog mais, e eu também sei que ninguém vai ler isso aqui. Mas, se por algum acaso alguém estiver lendo, o negócio é o seguinte: fazendo uma limpa no computador, que não está lá muito bom, encontrei diversos trechos de coisas que foram escritas nos últimos sei lá quantos anos, a grande maior parte não terminada. Como lotei os pen drives com séries, filmes e músicas, não tinha onde salvar todos eles, e como escrever se tornou algo raro, precisava arrumar lugar pra essas "relíquias". Foi então que lembrei do blog e resolvi colocar todos eles aqui, pelo menos provisóriamente. Juntei todos (ou quase todos) numa coisa só e fim.
Unfinished
Memories Of A Schizophrenic Mind
1-
Loving Ghosts
I know it will never happen
Not in this life
I pray for the next to come
So there will be another line
It seems it will take a long time
To share your pain with mine
How could I anticipate
This fate of love and pride?
Can I just follow the road
And keep the secret untold?
Is it fair to keep living
When I should be the one bleeding?
I hope I will go to the same place
I still remember the last time I saw your face
And it haunts me every night, even when I stay awake
But I know I didn't make a mistake
And everyday is one day less
But I can't reach the darkness
I should feel guilty for that
But there's emptiness instead
Life is suicide in slow motion
2-
Roses & Bones
Consumed love dies young
Forbiden love lasts forever
3-Playing
Cards With My Corpse
For
such a long time I tried to destroy myself
But
it was your name I called when I faced the death
Then
I knew there was a part of me I should burry
But
I failed and now I'm here playing cards with my corpse
An eternal battle against what should not be here
anymore
In this deck of cards
There are no king or queen
A
wasted land
Is my heart inside
4-Data
Traveler
Subliminar tendencies
In a long road
I hear the silence
The guilty goes away
I seek in the dust
I sleep in the fire
I should have been hurt
Too much dark, too much
light
Both can blind
Illusions come in a
bottle
So let me drink it all
Let me be immune
There's no ground
There's no sky
Instead of silence
dreams
I hold the last breath
I need to free
What should never have
been
Released
5-
On A Cold Winter's Night
I
wanna die on a cold winter's night
With silent tears in my
eyes
And nothing to leave behind
I wanna die on a cold winter's
night
Maybe the snow wouldn't be colder than me
So this
dream would be more than a fantasy
I wanna die on a cold winter's
night
The pain would never see another sunshine
Alone
I came, alone I will go
6-
Never-ending Story
This
is my never-ending story...
A long time ago
Misplaced
feelings
Underated scenes
In the right place
Mystical
pain
Released from the cage
It's insane that I survived
But
I can't scape
It still lies inside of me
Didn't you get hurt?
I
stayed awake
The nightmares came
The rules of the game
That
I've never planned
Can you look me in the eyes?
For all the
things I had sacrificed
Another day, another lie
All the voices
inside my mind
You are not the one to blame
But I don't feel
the guilty
Why is it so hard to explain?
This is not how it was
supposed to be
I keep it alive on my memories
The fake stars of
my tragedie
I said I would never have a heart
Time has
passed
Many things can last
But once they are gone, they are
forever gone
That's why I keep living the same day
With broken
dreams, blurry scenes
I thought it was everything
That once I
would have
It's what happens when destiny crashes
And all the
pain, I still have to deal with it
It's not the same but it grows
slowly inside
But still faster than it should
It lingers in the
halfway of coming and going
It will never fade away
I'm sorry,
you are my never-ending story
7-Mirror
of the existence
Searching
for the answer
On the mirror of existence
I swear one day I'll
belong
To the place you once called home
Living for a
tear
To wash away my sins
Reaching the light inside the
pain
Nothing will betray
The fear of my mistakes
Leaving
behind what I've become
Far away, hidden in the distance
A
space in time, the dust on fire
A heart that once was
mine
Feelings not so deep
Denied for many years
A chance
to recognize them
I'm weaker than my pride
On
the mirror of the existence
A blurry image I see
The dead part
of me