And I Don't Even Know

Silent whisper that I cannot understand
You bring me the pain
But I'd give my life to hold your hand
Everything in this life is in vain

And I don't even know
The secret that I hide so well
And I don't even know
How many times I fell

I cannot die
But I cannot live anymore
I'm tired of this lie
How can a word hurt me?
Making me remember what I shoul be
It seems that I'm playing with my bruises
And torturing myself thinking in what I can lose
But I'm blind to see the truth
I cannot lose what I will never have

And I don't even know
The secret that I hide so well
And I don't even know
How many times I fell

Alone as ever
Empty
Guilty
Weak
Freak
Coward!!!
This is what I chose to be
Can you see the agony in me?

And I don't even know
The reason why I keep reading
And I don't even know
The reason why I keep bleeding