sexta-feira, 27 de março de 2009

Eu me acostumei a ser muito precisa, tanto com horários assim como datas, sempre gostei de números exatos...

E hoje, ao completar um ano postando aqui... decido encerrar isso aqui (só o tempo dirá se esta é uma medida provisória ou não)

Sim, estou me aposentando das palavras... o que não significa porém que de vez em quando eu não recorra à elas, mas farei isso o mínimo possível, uma vez que não há mais nada que eu ainda precise dizer...

Simples assim, deixo isso tudo no mesmo lugar aonde começou...

terça-feira, 17 de março de 2009

Welcome To Illusia

Comentários: Bom, na verdade esse é um poema inacabado ... e assim vai permanecer, porque hoje eu não vejo mais sentido para as palavras que nele foram escritas... espero que ainda assim tenha se tornado algo bom, pois durante quase uma semana depositei minhas esperanças na sua grandiosidade... algo que infelizmente não saiu como planejado.


Welcome To Illusia

I spent a long time being who I am
Now it's time to fake
Illusion
Destruction

Once I dreamed wishing I could change the things
Now I keep waiting but without a hope, I cut my wings
Blinding memories
Denying reality

I tried to live my life but I just found pain
Every step I take I get more insane
Do you really know me or you just play the game?
So why does the last piece remains?

Do you believe in everything you see?
How can you say it's not a fantasy?
Heart against mind in a eternal fight
Can you find the light?

Welcome to Illusia
A place where you can buy your dreams
Welcome to Illusia
A place where nothing is what seems

My silence was the worst lie I could have told you
Now I spend my life thinking in what I won't do
But they never will forbid me to lay my head
And dream with all that I can't have

domingo, 8 de março de 2009

Dreams Are The Best Torture

Why is so easy to believe in what your eyes cannot see but you always find while you are sleeping?

The day that I read those verses
I knew that everything was just beginning
And it won't stop so early

'Cause it's just the pain that keeps watching me sleeping
Stealing my dreams to makes me feel like a sinner

I wish I could understand everything that I cannot know
But I keep waiting... I will always be here in the same place
Don't matter how much I cry
'Cause nobody can see my eyes
Don't matter how much I love
'Cause I don't have a heart

Dreams are the best torture
Don't matter what you do
They will always live in you
And the foolish hope will always be a light through the darkness
A light that turns off everytime you open your eyes

'Cause it's just the pain that keeps watching me sleeping
Stealing my dreams to makes me feel like a sinner

I guess I lost my last chance
But it never was real
So I just need torture myself one more time
But I don't know if I want to wake up again

Dreams are the best torture
Don't matter what you do
They will always live in you
And the foolish hope will always be a light through the darkness
A light that turns off everytime you open your eyes

Why I still believe?
Another light turned off...

quinta-feira, 26 de fevereiro de 2009

Eternity (365)

I can't feel anything
I'm the only one to blame
I don't wanna breathe
I'm just waiting in my shadows

Eternity
So cruel
A fantasy
So true

I don't know if I must believe in everything that keeps me alive

365 tears that I never cried
I wished I had strength to choose other way
I ever knew that I should live lost in a lie
I never will be ready

Eternity
So cruel
Insanity
So true

I don't know if I must believe in what I read

I locked myself in this dream
Now it's time to wake up
What I dreamed will be the only truth for me?
Or will I die when I open my eyes?

Eternity
So cruel
Reality
So cruel

I don't know if I must believe in myself
I don't know if I must believe in dreams
I don't know if I must believe in the future
I don't know if I must believe in destiny
I don't know if I must believe...

quinta-feira, 19 de fevereiro de 2009

Letargia

Meus olhos já não podem enxergar mais nada
O sangue escorre pelos meus pulsos
Tudo fica cada vez mais frio
Nem mesmo esta corda no meu pescoço é capaz de suportar o peso dos meus pecados
Eu despenco, rumo ao abismo sem fim
Aonde meus erros vem e me pegam pela mão
Conduzindo-me ao meu último suspiro
Então eu permito levarem meu coração em uma estaca
E deixo minha alma sucumbir aos meus medos
Meu corpo agoniza febril em sua sepultura
Uma última e desesperada chance de reaver minha alma
Meus pecados me atormentam novamente
Desencadeando minhas memórias
Revelando tudo o que eu perdi
Meus sonhos evaporam junto com o pouco que restou de minha inocência
Em vão eu tento segurar sua fumaça com minhas mãos
A dor continua presente ainda que eu não possa sentí-la
Meus pensamentos ecoam no silêncio
As correntes me mantêm ligada às raízes do meu sofrimento
Impedindo que eu possa adiar o fim
Eu posso sentí-lo cada vez mais perto
Me torturando lentamente ao dar-me a plena consciência de meus atos
Mostrando minha fraqueza perante o destino
Os fantasmas do passado voltam um a um para destruir o que seria deixado por mim
Tudo à minha volta desmorona enquanto eu me afogo no meu próprio sangue
Não sou poupada nem ao menos de assistir meu próprio fim
Minha alma debate-se, eu grito na tentativa de ainda ser ouvida
Mas mais uma vez o silêncio me cala
Uma última lágrima ainda escorre pelo meu rosto
Até encontrar-se com o sangue que continua a fluir pelos meus poros
Não há nada mais a fazer a não ser entregar-me
O pouco de energia que eu ainda possuo esvai-se rapidamente
E finalmente tudo é deixado para trás

segunda-feira, 16 de fevereiro de 2009

And I Don't Even Know

Silent whisper that I cannot understand
You bring me the pain
But I'd give my life to hold your hand
Everything in this life is in vain

And I don't even know
The secret that I hide so well
And I don't even know
How many times I fell

I cannot die
But I cannot live anymore
I'm tired of this lie
How can a word hurt me?
Making me remember what I shoul be
It seems that I'm playing with my bruises
And torturing myself thinking in what I can lose
But I'm blind to see the truth
I cannot lose what I will never have

And I don't even know
The secret that I hide so well
And I don't even know
How many times I fell

Alone as ever
Empty
Guilty
Weak
Freak
Coward!!!
This is what I chose to be
Can you see the agony in me?

And I don't even know
The reason why I keep reading
And I don't even know
The reason why I keep bleeding

sábado, 14 de fevereiro de 2009

The Secret Of My Destiny (Between The Right And The Wrong)

Comentários: Aonde foi parar minha obscuridade? Se alguem achar por favor entrar em contato!


The Secret Of My Destiny (Between The Right And The Wrong)

It's almost midnight
And you are still here
I feel you presence
There's nothing I fear
The truth isn't real
It won't happen
But it keeps so near
I want to try it
In my dreams

It's getting closer
Maybe next life
I could wait
And it just feel right

I know much more than you
I kept it secret
Untill your lies became the truth
I want to read your mind
I want to you to recognize
All the ways
That lead you to the dark
I can't control it
It's more than I expect
It's just the destiny
Screaming in my head

It's getting closer
Maybe next life
I could wait
And it just feel right

The time is passing
But I never will run
Desires
I can't forget what I've done
It's just a fantasy
Playing with the reality
A nightmare
In my sweet insanity

It's getting closer
Maybe next life
I could wait
And it just feel right

I know somethings
Between the right and wrong
I do nothing
How can I be so strong?
I stoped the search
Why do you still hide?
My heart has nothing inside
But all the secrets
I keep locked in my mind